Lately ive been feeling somewhat rather empty
Something's lacking
iam not sure is what...
i tried to find what is it
but only to sink in further to my own emptiness..
drown in my own life
fed up with this cycle
only to find out that at the end of the day
its me who does not want to do anything bout it

Its not that i dun want
but i dunno how
how to make life better and more comforting...
god please help me find a remedy...

Its been long since i last posted a proper post.. So here it goes.. For jealous gfs who felt that their bfs were stolen from them due to NS and wish to not hear anything more about NS then dun read.. Cox my life is nth but NS.. lolz

Ok, life as a CQ:
Pple seems to have a misperception that we are like servants who are suppose to be at their beck and call... And screw u if u say u do not have this thinking... And i got a thousand and one shit to rant about being a CQ and getting posted into my new unit.. honestly i will not hate the job if pple from upper ranks are cooperative and stop pushing so much shit!

And its worse off when the men ur fighting for feels that your useless and do not respect u even though u fought fire for them. getting offs etc. they just dun appreciate..

And CQ are deemed as having everything in the store.. Theres is this fucking sergeant who asked "do u have cleaning equipment so that my men can wash the toilet", i answered "no" then he looked at me like i did not do my job and said "then go indent la!" BTW he is not kidding.. Of course what ended up was a heated argument and i fucking screwed him upside down. Show some respect man at least iam a fucking sergeant to be. And in all, iam not ur fucking servant so dun expect me to adhere to ur needs...

ok... END OF RANTS!!

Anyway, life's been pretty boring with all my friends involved with NDP rehearsals etc, there's hardly time for me to spend with them.. And my weekends got pretty boring.. So bored that i on my com the whole day and just stare at the screen... but looking on the bright side, at least i saved some money though...
K la, iam watching GI joe with my sis and her bf soon.. I know he must have hated me for ruining his date! LOL.. ciao

I know iam living in my own world
In my own imagination
Refusing to wake up and face reality
That is why
i would rather sink in further
drown in my own imagination
hoping somehow my imagination will turn to reality...


tonight i shall slp, smiling whole night long
Cause you made my day...=)Thanks... Cause u just turned months of sorrows that i went through into thin air...