do u live in self delusion?
a facade created by yourself, painted with scenarios which you thought were perfect, but were not?
have u tried to read the truth, and enter into reality?
and when here comes the truth, would u hide in your self painted world again, waiting for the day where your able to accept reality?

whatever the case, its the mind's doing and i know i can overcome it...=)

一个人哭过就好，
不要在为了一样的理由而难过就好了。。

Its wierd that in order to forget the person, the person must avoid the other party at all cost.

But i dun wanna do that. As much as i wanted to be only friends with her but i can't.
is there a way to still see the person but at the same time forgetting about her?
The more i see her, the more iam attracted to her.. which is kindda cliche cause ive been telling myself the past few years that i will forget about her but i just can't. Ive lied to her and said iam alright and cool with it but in fact iam not.

I think iam useless when it comes to this kindda thing. Somehow iam not tired about it, i dunno what keeps me going or why she's so attractive to me. But all i know is that the feeling is still as strong as before, in fact even stronger.

think i shall just fuck it, treat this as just a passing thought and just sleep.