Sometimes i admire the courage of a few friends who went to overseas to pursue what they want. Its hard for me to just leave the country leaving everything behind and start a new life. SOmetimes i hate myself for being so cowardly. I dunno. its been a really emotional roller coaster for me these few weeks. Iam feeling motivated but soon a torch fire will extinguished also right? I duno how long i can keep up with this.
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getting a glimpse of her is so hard. Sometimes i even look at her from behind, i just couldn't walk there and say hi. I dunno why... But iam glad that all the school work has kindda divert my attention a little. Focus focus! iam thinking of her again.. damn