Do ya guys have this feeling of supressed anger and sadness? I do have it and its like coming on and off. Even my dad probably felt it. But i just have no solution to it. It feels like inside me there's something which i din even realize that is bothering me which probably equates to this unknown feelings. If its something called puberty then i think it came too late... I dunno what iam hating or angry with.. Or is it her that iam pissed with?

For these few days, finally i dun have recurring thoughts of her anymore. I thought i finally forgotten her. But hell no... I had to sms her, asked her whether she's free. I meant to ask her out as in mutual friends but in the end, theres no reply. I thought, before smsing her that if she din reply, i wun mind but i felt pissed for her ignorance to me.. Why am i still pissed if i dun like her anymore? That was probably when i realized that i still like her. Maybe she has someone she likes, or she has her own social circle that maybe she felt that going out with me is boring. But i have to admit that iam quite a boring guy though.

Probably i will stick to this imaginary theory, that is, as long as i try hard not to think about it, i will eventually forget it...