Today's the most dejected day man... And its all probably my fault.. Lazy to explain what happened. I wonder if it is my personality which got me so down... Being low confident, lazy, unwilling to do things, lack of initiative and no priority... My dad was spot on with most of these adjectives...

I know i lack initiative, but aim lazy in nature... I'm only interested in doing things if it entice me or with regards to studying... I thought i have put in effort already but at the end of the day, there will always be someone who is giving in more effort and smarter than me. I feel damn stupid at times, like a frog in a well, not knowing whats going on... Damn.. i really dunno what to do.. i need advice... and the little scolding from my dad really awaken me and starting from now, ive decided to do something bout my flaws. Change it for the sake of being a better person... I used to complain bout my dad if he is being unreasonable but after today, i think he is kindda right. Everything seems like a small thing or problem to me that i ignore it when it became a huge problem then i start to panic... how true..

Anyway this post is a reminder for myself... I gotta change somehow... I wanna be a sucessful person in life, not a follow and not a failure..