you asked me why do i kept looking at you whilst u were aslp during the movie,
is it because i wanna ensure ur awake,
i wished i could have said because u look so angel-like during that time...

that was when i realized i've loved you more through these yrs but i've become more and more timid.

fear of a failed confession
fear of the after taste of rejection
fear of me not wanting to continue this friendship
fear of everything but not fear of liking you secretly...
i kindda lost it all,
because i cannot even afford this bit of courage...

maybe in the first place this was all a total failure...