I've finally learn the true meaning of granting true happiness to someone you love. And i'm proud to say, I've done it. As long as you smile, its worth it, because no one except me knows how beautiful you look when you smile. We both tried really hard to maintain it, but ultimately we know something just doesn't seem right. It took me lots of courage today to confront everything, because I don't want our r/s to be made out of guilt and burden. I've learnt alot, things like letting go, true happiness, and most importantly the fact that your willing to give it a try just shows how important you have regard me in your heart. And thats enough for me.

Anyway, I'm closing this blog, for no particular reason. Thank you for reading, though I've posted nothing much. I wish you readers all the best.

Injustice? Victim? how the hell will you understand that? Being approach for something you din do. Being kept in the dark. Secrets pouring out like nobody's business. Tonnes of explanations. Its upsetting how our friendship turned out like that. Iam just tired of all these saga. I'm a victim too, but who understands? Which side should I take, and haven't I help explaining for both sides? Why am I being criticize? Its just upsetting. I did my best for a friend, but I was labelled as an accuser.

Injustice? Victim? how the hell will you understand that? Being approach for something you din do. Being kept in the dark. Secrets pouring out like nobody's business. Tonnes of explanations. Its upsetting how our friendship turned out like that. Iam just tired of all these saga. I'm a victim too, but who understands? Which side should I take, and haven't I help explaining for both sides? Why am I being criticize? Its just upsetting. I did my best for a friend, but I was labelled as an accuser.

Somehow, i felt much much happier when I'm in Vietnam...

Finally I'm back from Vietnam, Hanoi. So we repainted the school, taught the children ABCs and nursery songs and also played lots of games with the children. I've had lots of realization.

1. Not to take the very simple things in life for granted. Because 17 days without easy access to internet is actually possible if you start observing the beautiful sceneries around you.

2. Flexibility is actually a important key towards the success of a project since the Vietnamese people are very very spontaneous people and plans may change accordingly.

3. Some of the girls in my trip whom i thought were pampered, weren't so afterall. Nv ever evaluate a person based on first time experience.

4. The kids have taught me how to be happy just by playing ball and simple games, how to be contented in life, how important reciprocating people's kind intention can actually be made easily in the forms of non-monetary methods.

5. Crying is a gayish I know, but its my form of expressing my sincere thoughts and probably a good way to show my sincerity! haha.

6. And finally, the same gift translated into different meanings and expressions can actually change the meaning of the gift. =)

And, I just want to thank my group members for being so fun and loving and the guys are really touched by your gesture of the pig toy you all have bought for us although the girls are overly cliquish! haha. Oh and not forgetting the people whom I've met in Vietnam along the streets when I'm cycling for they have been saying Xin Chao (hello) to me every single morning as I rode past them. And lastly, I thank you kids for bringing me joy, even though I felt very tired after a day but your small gestures have made me feel like the happiest man on earth, Though you will not be seeing this, but I tried communicating to you all via sms. If there's a chance, I will go visit you kids again.

Overall, I've learnt too much from the people in Vietnam particularly the kids. Perhaps I've flared up a little on the last day of the trip but its simply because the people in my group ain't listening to the leader's instructions. But overall, this is a trip etched deep into my memory and I really love Vietnam.

Was at the Hanoi airport, and i saw the sms written by one of the kids I have taught. It says "Hello, thank you, bye." Those 3 words that the kid sent has made my period of stay in Vietnam worthwhile. And I am ashamed for not being able to reply you in proper Vietnamese language except for Cam on and Xin Chau. Thank you for letting me learn so much things from you for I've discovered something about myself and about life that I did not knew exist.

Sometimes its good to cry, because it is the only way to let out your emotion. And I really tried hard holding back my tears throughout the trip, but i just couldn't. Damn, I am really missing those kids.

Anyway I will update more about my volunteering trip to Vietnam, Hanoi, tomorrow.