As iam sitting here penning my thoughts down in a very intricate feel/mood, i can't help but feel that my intensity and determination to love someone has somewhat overwhlems even me... People always say, if you do not try, you will never know... Ive tried and failed... The great thing about trying esp. when it comes to confession is the reality is normally opposite of what you think... And yeah, the girl was not into me... That leads me to sadness, a valley where i can never climb back again... A world which darkens as thoughts of her keep appearing in my mind... Of course humans tend to exaggerate when it comes to feelings... The thoughts which control how u think and feel... For example, if i am busy or having a very good time with my friends, i would not think of her normally or maybe subconsciously i do think of her...
Well after so much of crap ive written above, the bottomline is that iam still very much in love with her... And it grows and would not be gone, just like a parasite stuck to a host... If she reads this, i know for sure, she would be VERY irritated... Damn... these love issues just wun stop... I wanna be back to the days where i did not like anyone...
A few days ago, my hardisk crashed... Spent like 4 hrs trying to retrieve the data but to no avail... And my thoughts were only the pics ive took with her and the video which i made for her when she left for overseas attachment... The pics taken before she left, the last movie outing, pictures of her smile which got me through the difficult times when iam just staring at it are all gone... It feels as if part of me has gone...
People often like someone so easily and so easily forget bout them which i view it as facade on their part... That is bullshit, that ain't love... If u can easily forget bout someone u like in the past then its not love, it might as well be called admiration.. Once the person says he/she dun like u, soon u will forget bout him/her... How superficial can that be huh... Iam not saying u should be dwelling on it forever, but have some respect for urself.. At least show that u really like the person and not just forget bout him/her so easily... Anyway its just my thoughts, no offence to anyone... U have ur thoughts and i have mine....
Iam sorry if this has become like a blog for her again... But i need to pen down my thoughts, somewhere... Or else i would die thinking of it...
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Anyway, catched Chuck season 2 the first episode and it was fantastic yet again... The intel is duplicated and yet again destriyed by a trojan so chuck wun die afterall..
And.... Ive caught episodes 1-6 of prison break season 4... All within one day... Iam such a show freak huh... Anyway, i gtg... Tired... Adios...
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