Feeling as depressed as I was last semester when I took my java lab test and in the end i got 1/30, a secret which only 1 of my good friend knows. That feeling was terrible, and it was because of that, in which i almost submitted my letter of withdrawal but luckily my prof advised me not to, in the end i did alright. But now, faced with another challenge and i really dunno if i can get through this at all... Really worried.

Used to have someone to talk to about this, she was the one who gave me courage to continue pursuing a degree and she was the only one whom i consulted and trusted. Not even my family knows about the fact that I actually got an internship job at exoon mobil and rejected their request for a final interview with me, before i'm selected to go work for them. Now, i don't know if I really will regret studying this course or not. All i know is that she once pointed me to a direction that she felt was right for me, and i heed her advice. Now, my sense and source of direction is gone, who can i find to affirm that the decision to continue studying was correct in the first place?

I used to think that she was just someone whom i really like, and thats all. But little did i know that she has the capability to actually influence my life. If only she also has the same feeling and thinking as me...