Went to malaysia today... The whole crew came to celebrate my ah ma and ah gong's golden wedding anniversary.. Had a hell of a good time with them.. Played basketball with them and sparined my middle finger... Damn it now i cannot point it...! After that went for the dinner... Not too bad.. But as usual i did not touch the seafood dishes except the fish.
Headed back home while the rest went out i guess... ANyway with regards to my sup supervisor course, its been slack.. No stay in yet, just lectures after lectures. Anyway my stay in will start from 5th jan onwards... So, its gonna be a freaking 4 months of booking out on fri night and booking in on sun night.
And christmas this yr was fucking boring..! Maybe i dun like to chiong, thus losing out lots of things. I need a change of life man... my current life now is fuking boring like practically lazing around...And gg out seems boring to me too.. SO i dunno what i want...
Gonna go slp now, though u guys should know i will not be zzzing yet, but thats the only way to end my posting though.. Ciao. Oh ya another thing i learnt from my OC, which is a sophisticated term for chao geng is called critical thinking..
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Beggining a new lease of NS life in sembawang camp... Wish me luck.. And good luck to those in their new vocation...
I gave up to up pes... Cox i know its impossible and i know that somewhere in my heart iam scared of the training... Damn it.. I feel so damn useless and ashamed of myself...
Sometimes i wish there will be someone,
to listen to what i have to say.
To know how i feel,
to share with her how i feel...
I wanna know how it feels like being loved
how it feels to love...
How it feels to cuddle the person you love...
But i still haven't met the person yet...
I gave up to up pes... Cox i know its impossible and i know that somewhere in my heart iam scared of the training... Damn it.. I feel so damn useless and ashamed of myself...
Sometimes i wish there will be someone,
to listen to what i have to say.
To know how i feel,
to share with her how i feel...
I wanna know how it feels like being loved
how it feels to love...
How it feels to cuddle the person you love...
But i still haven't met the person yet...
Friday, December 19, 2008
Just watched a korean drama called "new heart". Its about the life of doctors in a famous hospital. Some harbour only simple thoughts of saving lives while some others are out for the money. It shows the ugly side of some doctors and how they prioritize the patients judging by social status, their income and the survival rate. Its a good drama to watch though.
I believe pple engage in something with a simple thought at first. Its either to fulfill their passion or simply to do what they like. But along the way, we lose our sense of direction and often got lost. We follow what we think is right, which also meant following the crowd. Cause its always the "social norm" that causes us to lose our initial beliefs. And at the end of the day, we find ourselves stuck in this furball of mess as we continue to plunge into the hole of wrong beliefs.
This also applies in life i guess. We always lose our sense of direction. There are things and pple to guide us but in the end, its up to us whether to follow or not. And lastly, to make sure we do not regret what we initially thought was right.
I believe pple engage in something with a simple thought at first. Its either to fulfill their passion or simply to do what they like. But along the way, we lose our sense of direction and often got lost. We follow what we think is right, which also meant following the crowd. Cause its always the "social norm" that causes us to lose our initial beliefs. And at the end of the day, we find ourselves stuck in this furball of mess as we continue to plunge into the hole of wrong beliefs.
This also applies in life i guess. We always lose our sense of direction. There are things and pple to guide us but in the end, its up to us whether to follow or not. And lastly, to make sure we do not regret what we initially thought was right.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
This morning, completed a 5km jog (more or less 5 km)! Damn proud of myself... Muahhaa. Not much of an achievement la, but you guys should know that i hated jogging the most. Now, its like a very good exercise for me. To train my endurance level. Of course in between my jog, i stopped for one or two times. Hehe...
after that slacked at home and watched jia hao yue yuan. Finally completed this show.Then manveer text me and asked if i wanna go zouk or not. But in the end, i dun wanna go. COnfirm i will look like a sua ku in front of them one.. Somemore, my face look like guai kia, and i dun quite like this kindda environment la.. Rather slp at home...
In the end, went out with a long time friend. Had a good chat and we talked about everything under the sun... Then went home and played bball a while and finally got home...
That sums up my day la... Ciao...
***One week...***
after that slacked at home and watched jia hao yue yuan. Finally completed this show.Then manveer text me and asked if i wanna go zouk or not. But in the end, i dun wanna go. COnfirm i will look like a sua ku in front of them one.. Somemore, my face look like guai kia, and i dun quite like this kindda environment la.. Rather slp at home...
In the end, went out with a long time friend. Had a good chat and we talked about everything under the sun... Then went home and played bball a while and finally got home...
That sums up my day la... Ciao...
***One week...***
I'm always very unhappy about why pple can accomplish some things and i can't. Like being in PES c. I thought i should feel alright. But the mental torture you get, like how useless we are, how less training we get, some of our commanders also felt so and i din even have the chance to participate in route march even though i know i can. And the funny thing is you get charged if they know that your status does not permit you to do certain rigourous activities. Its like over rated. And yet if iam in pes b or bp, my ligament thingy which took me like years to recover may come back again. Dunno what to do la. My friends say, since we are given this status, just live on with it and give in your best shot prior to whatever vocation they give you which i agree...
I seriously hate the way pes c have their poc. It sucks! Compared to pop, everyone's enjoying every moment of it. People taking pics, the bonding and parents get to put on jockey cap for their son. Who the hell dun want that. But because we are in pes c, we did not go through the full regiment of NS and we did not suffer much, and ppl think we are not capable of anything thus the not-so-grand ceremony. I tried to up pes but failed. Funnny huh. I still have to prove that iam fit enough then can up pes.
And now they know i got hypertension which makes it impossible for me. WTF!!! Its not like iam crazy that i wanna go through all these shit but i need to prove myself i can do it. I wanna let my parents be proud of me. Although pes c did went through field camp etc but the training is still minimal. The only way i can comfort myself is that pray that i can get a goood posting, and continue to train myself everyday. people may think we are chao gengs, yes indeed some of us are. Those pple i call them useless. But pple like us who have real injuries like thorn ligament, there is no way we can hide our condition and we cannot recover from it. and certainly during halfway throughout training we may hurt the same spot again. Maybe they should change the structure of training of pes c. We are not totally useless, we can still go through at least 80% of the pes a/bs' training.
END OF RANTINGS!!!
I seriously hate the way pes c have their poc. It sucks! Compared to pop, everyone's enjoying every moment of it. People taking pics, the bonding and parents get to put on jockey cap for their son. Who the hell dun want that. But because we are in pes c, we did not go through the full regiment of NS and we did not suffer much, and ppl think we are not capable of anything thus the not-so-grand ceremony. I tried to up pes but failed. Funnny huh. I still have to prove that iam fit enough then can up pes.
And now they know i got hypertension which makes it impossible for me. WTF!!! Its not like iam crazy that i wanna go through all these shit but i need to prove myself i can do it. I wanna let my parents be proud of me. Although pes c did went through field camp etc but the training is still minimal. The only way i can comfort myself is that pray that i can get a goood posting, and continue to train myself everyday. people may think we are chao gengs, yes indeed some of us are. Those pple i call them useless. But pple like us who have real injuries like thorn ligament, there is no way we can hide our condition and we cannot recover from it. and certainly during halfway throughout training we may hurt the same spot again. Maybe they should change the structure of training of pes c. We are not totally useless, we can still go through at least 80% of the pes a/bs' training.
END OF RANTINGS!!!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Went out yesterday, watched bolt... Not bad, but was disappointed when the movie is not about a dog with superhuman skills though... Spotted a jeans at cottons on, wanted to buy it but think i should consult my mother... haha. Anyway did i tell u guys that i slimmed down... muhahaa. but i think i will gain weight again la.. Anyway, all my jeans looked baggy when i wear it.
Finally i will be meeting part of my section mates for dinner and movie.. Iam pretty nervous though because its like the first time we are meeting out of camp. Wonder how the turnout will be like though. Iam gonna go jogging now... hehe. You guys must be wondering if iam crazy or what huh. haha. ciao... And good luck to marcus kel and les for their 24km route march and enjoy your glorious POP yea..
***I hate to wait... Thats my character... But when we meet, i will always stupidly wait for her for an hour at least... And i feel angry but after a sec, the anger just dissipitated... if as friends, she's always letting me wait, does it show smth? Iam not angry, its just that i dunno what she is thinking... Doesn't it show that i dun mean much as a friend to her at all...?***
Finally i will be meeting part of my section mates for dinner and movie.. Iam pretty nervous though because its like the first time we are meeting out of camp. Wonder how the turnout will be like though. Iam gonna go jogging now... hehe. You guys must be wondering if iam crazy or what huh. haha. ciao... And good luck to marcus kel and les for their 24km route march and enjoy your glorious POP yea..
***I hate to wait... Thats my character... But when we meet, i will always stupidly wait for her for an hour at least... And i feel angry but after a sec, the anger just dissipitated... if as friends, she's always letting me wait, does it show smth? Iam not angry, its just that i dunno what she is thinking... Doesn't it show that i dun mean much as a friend to her at all...?***
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Po... PO.... CCC....
Just got back home... Finished my POC... Wahhaa... Now my block leave starts... Its wild last night, pple going around putting cogate on those who fell aslp.. And bunk wars etc.. Iam sure to miss my section... ciao.. Its such a nice weather to sleep in.. Ciao...
I'm Still finding...
Still searching...
Messing around with loose sand...
I'm Still finding...
Still searching...
Messing around with loose sand...
Sunday, November 30, 2008
The previous week has been fun... We went around tying pple and covering their head with pail and push them to other section bunks... They poured listerine, snake powder and cogate on my ass... Thats lethal shit man... And we ate and ate and ate and slp slp slp... And preparation for games day sucks... Anyway, iamma go zzz again... ciao... POC on 9 dec!
Sometimes i wish i can be more straightforward and not wishy washy about the issue of love.. Cox it always sucks to be at the giving end... Why am i always not on the receiving end...
Sometimes i wish i can be more straightforward and not wishy washy about the issue of love.. Cox it always sucks to be at the giving end... Why am i always not on the receiving end...
Monday, November 24, 2008
A failed confession is like stabbing someone and asking if the person is alright or not even though you knew he was bleeding and in pain...
How true huh... Mine version of a failed confession... Sounds painful huh. Anyway ive decided to be cool bout this whole thing... Back to the same old cheery me...
Oh ya, had a short meetup with marcus, gl, sheela and brenda... Had a good chat but they were playing ds... =( Ignored again, lolz... But i finally ate the ikea meatballs... Damn nice i must say! Special thanks to marcus for fetching us again... Your effort is very much appreciated but ive paid my dues for the newpaper so we dun owe each other... LOL.
Anyway, went to the airport to get some visa thingy done... My sis and i were so desperate to know my current weight that we went to the baggage weighing counter and i stepped on it and i weigh 80 plus kg already! Shiok ah! You guys will nv know the feeling of slimming down man... It feels so good la! K la, to all fellow eagles out there, work hard... lolz... its just army terms again... BTW, i completed my field camp already! Had rashes and bruises here and there but overall its fun... Not on the extreme side of fun though... ciao.
How true huh... Mine version of a failed confession... Sounds painful huh. Anyway ive decided to be cool bout this whole thing... Back to the same old cheery me...
Oh ya, had a short meetup with marcus, gl, sheela and brenda... Had a good chat but they were playing ds... =( Ignored again, lolz... But i finally ate the ikea meatballs... Damn nice i must say! Special thanks to marcus for fetching us again... Your effort is very much appreciated but ive paid my dues for the newpaper so we dun owe each other... LOL.
Anyway, went to the airport to get some visa thingy done... My sis and i were so desperate to know my current weight that we went to the baggage weighing counter and i stepped on it and i weigh 80 plus kg already! Shiok ah! You guys will nv know the feeling of slimming down man... It feels so good la! K la, to all fellow eagles out there, work hard... lolz... its just army terms again... BTW, i completed my field camp already! Had rashes and bruises here and there but overall its fun... Not on the extreme side of fun though... ciao.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Army!
Its my turn, the day has come for me to serve my beloved country with pride and patriotism...! *pukes* Whatever the case , see ya guys in 2 weeks time!
And i will miss ya guys and definitely my family! Its so hard to not see them for like 2 weeks... hehe... ciao..
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It was a short meetup, though only 4 hours, but it is the BEST day of my entire holiday... The way you laughed at my stupid jokes, the expressions, the smile, the lame topics you started, the tennis "court" and many more! But i know we are just friends and nth else... Thanks alot!
And i will miss ya guys and definitely my family! Its so hard to not see them for like 2 weeks... hehe... ciao..
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It was a short meetup, though only 4 hours, but it is the BEST day of my entire holiday... The way you laughed at my stupid jokes, the expressions, the smile, the lame topics you started, the tennis "court" and many more! But i know we are just friends and nth else... Thanks alot!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Whatcha doing tonight
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealing your dreams
Why can't I breathe
You into my life
So tell me
What would it take
To make you see that I'm alive
If I was invisible
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read
What goes through your mind
Oh baby
Wish you could touch me
With the colors of your life
If I was invisible (Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
I'd make you mine tonight
(Invisible)
I'd make you mine tonight
I reach out
You don't even see me
(No you don't, No you don't)
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
(You don'thear me)
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through
Invisible
Invisible
Invisible
If I was invisible
(Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
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My all time fav by clay aiken... Today was way boring boring boring... All i know is the invisible countdown timer in my head which spells "8 days more to NS"...
Iam sure all of u are leading a life happier than mine currently... Iam bored to tears already...
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealing your dreams
Why can't I breathe
You into my life
So tell me
What would it take
To make you see that I'm alive
If I was invisible
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read
What goes through your mind
Oh baby
Wish you could touch me
With the colors of your life
If I was invisible (Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
I'd make you mine tonight
(Invisible)
I'd make you mine tonight
I reach out
You don't even see me
(No you don't, No you don't)
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
(You don'thear me)
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through
Invisible
Invisible
Invisible
If I was invisible
(Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
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My all time fav by clay aiken... Today was way boring boring boring... All i know is the invisible countdown timer in my head which spells "8 days more to NS"...
Iam sure all of u are leading a life happier than mine currently... Iam bored to tears already...
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Met up with jasmine at bugis junction.. Walked around, sat at starbucks and chit chatted forlike an hour and a half.. Bout all the stupid things we did when we were young and her r/s and reasons for my singlehood and many more! Its such a great meetup...
She had classes so went to Lasalle and walked over to the national library and met her again after her lessons... Went to selegie tau huay and headed home...
After that went to wee nam kee with my family for dinner... Then headed to jp to buy a flip flop... And my mother always say this one nice but not anti-slip... Or she would pick an anti-slip one and the design is like so cheena... Settled for one pair at Bata cox bloody shoe shops in jp dun have my size...! Maybe my leg's too big...=(
Headed home and resting now... My ankle somehow feels wierd... It still hurts after so many weeks... Iam beggining to worry now cox its 10 days more to army! How fast huh... I was complaining bout how long it is till enlistment date... But now, iam preparing my stuff already.. Will pose my kuku specs which costs me 170 bucks... Regretted buying it though but mum says its ok... But dad's specs was a killer, which costed 670 dollars... -.- The extra bucks are just because he is lao hua so need special lens... I shall go watch tang xin fong bao (the 2nd one) which is like awesomeness nice!
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I smsed,
I waited,
No reply,
Nth at all...
Guess ur not sincere bout our meetup...
But i blamed myself for hurting my leg before the day iam supposed to meet u...
I guess it will take forever for me to really forget u...
i'm Upset.
She had classes so went to Lasalle and walked over to the national library and met her again after her lessons... Went to selegie tau huay and headed home...
After that went to wee nam kee with my family for dinner... Then headed to jp to buy a flip flop... And my mother always say this one nice but not anti-slip... Or she would pick an anti-slip one and the design is like so cheena... Settled for one pair at Bata cox bloody shoe shops in jp dun have my size...! Maybe my leg's too big...=(
Headed home and resting now... My ankle somehow feels wierd... It still hurts after so many weeks... Iam beggining to worry now cox its 10 days more to army! How fast huh... I was complaining bout how long it is till enlistment date... But now, iam preparing my stuff already.. Will pose my kuku specs which costs me 170 bucks... Regretted buying it though but mum says its ok... But dad's specs was a killer, which costed 670 dollars... -.- The extra bucks are just because he is lao hua so need special lens... I shall go watch tang xin fong bao (the 2nd one) which is like awesomeness nice!
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I smsed,
I waited,
No reply,
Nth at all...
Guess ur not sincere bout our meetup...
But i blamed myself for hurting my leg before the day iam supposed to meet u...
I guess it will take forever for me to really forget u...
i'm Upset.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Weekends...
Went to malaysia on sat! Had a super fun day... Had a good chat with my cousins, we probably can talk about anything on the world... Ok, except football... LOL... Cox we dun watch soccer! They recommended me to watch Ming Zhong Zu Ding Wo Ai Ni... Its quite a nice show... but i got tired watching it for about 5 eps.. Shall catch it some other day... So, we went to the peninsula plaza i think... The girls went shoppping while the guys, (my 2 cousins, me, dad and uncle) played bowling... My second attempt though... At least i got a strike... Then we went to arcade and all of us were totally fascinated by the box karoke... Its like each box can fill 2-3 pple and inside there is basic k box set... No drinks and food la... Each song is only RM 1.00... I supposed i nv seen this side of my dad for a very long time.. Playing bowling and singing in karaoke... Although the songs are limited, but luckily they got those oldies so my dad and uncle sang quite a few songs...
The day ended at some restaurant which is located at...... i dunno where... LOL.. All i know is that the mee and bee hoon and esp. the chicken wings are fantastic...
Headed home, bathed and slept...
Sunday went to bedok, played with yu xin as usual... The whole house is filled with laughters... This is probably the power of an infant, as it makes the whole family more bonded than before... This is the kind of weekends i always look forward to... Iam very lucky cox my families on both sides of my parents are very bonded... And my ah ma gave me an ang bao cox i may not be in jb for quite some time... Hopefully i can apply for permission to go overseas during my NS...
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Other than sat and sun, i absolutely hated mon-fri! Staying at home, doing nth but facing the com and tv... Cannot even go exercise which sucks more... I wanna swim badly la! But all my buddies in camp already... Iam ALONE... Its freaking lonely... Somehow iam like the leftout kid... U guys will nv know how it feels like to be the last man standing.. LOL... I sound exaggerated huh...
Suddenly my aunties asked me whether ive got a gf or not.. How she looks like and stuff... But i really dun have... And they say youngsters at ur age should have what... Iam like -.-... Maybe iam really unattractive... Oh well... Hopefully some girl just pops up the morning when i wake up... Ok it sounds like ONS but i meant like magically poppping up...
Its not that i dun like the idea of a gf, but the pple i like just dun like me... Somehow iam presented as unattractive and behaving more of like a sis to them... Damn.. i hate it that way though... i shall leave the affairs of heart to God... Give me a gf soon!
AS IF! lolz...
Love's not math...
Its unlogical and there is no standard formulas...
Its unrigid, filled with undescribable feelings just like a poetry
where the beauty of the poem is appreciated by the poet himself...
The day ended at some restaurant which is located at...... i dunno where... LOL.. All i know is that the mee and bee hoon and esp. the chicken wings are fantastic...
Headed home, bathed and slept...
Sunday went to bedok, played with yu xin as usual... The whole house is filled with laughters... This is probably the power of an infant, as it makes the whole family more bonded than before... This is the kind of weekends i always look forward to... Iam very lucky cox my families on both sides of my parents are very bonded... And my ah ma gave me an ang bao cox i may not be in jb for quite some time... Hopefully i can apply for permission to go overseas during my NS...
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Other than sat and sun, i absolutely hated mon-fri! Staying at home, doing nth but facing the com and tv... Cannot even go exercise which sucks more... I wanna swim badly la! But all my buddies in camp already... Iam ALONE... Its freaking lonely... Somehow iam like the leftout kid... U guys will nv know how it feels like to be the last man standing.. LOL... I sound exaggerated huh...
Suddenly my aunties asked me whether ive got a gf or not.. How she looks like and stuff... But i really dun have... And they say youngsters at ur age should have what... Iam like -.-... Maybe iam really unattractive... Oh well... Hopefully some girl just pops up the morning when i wake up... Ok it sounds like ONS but i meant like magically poppping up...
Its not that i dun like the idea of a gf, but the pple i like just dun like me... Somehow iam presented as unattractive and behaving more of like a sis to them... Damn.. i hate it that way though... i shall leave the affairs of heart to God... Give me a gf soon!
AS IF! lolz...
Love's not math...
Its unlogical and there is no standard formulas...
Its unrigid, filled with undescribable feelings just like a poetry
where the beauty of the poem is appreciated by the poet himself...
Friday, October 10, 2008
Everyone's gone..
Yea! Went out on tues with zz.... Finally bought a fossil watch with a 40% discount! Dunno why i bought it also... Shall post the pic next time... Went to watch eagle eye... Not bad, the movie is quite nice.. The action kind... 4/5 stars for me...
On wed, nth much.. Thurs went to long beach at IMM... Went in and shop around, i almost could not believe that its IMM from the look outside... it has revamped alot. But the interior, stil needs improvement... LOL. The food was nice, we ordered drunk prawns, chili crab, long bean, and hotplate tofu...
Reached home and use the com till now... Anyway, zz, my so called last friend aka swimming khaki has went into army already!! So officially, everyone is gone as stated from my blog title... but i'm also gonna go in soon... Another 14 more days! And my leg and thumb sprain have not fully recovered... Hopefully by then i will be alright, meanwhile no exercising for me... =( and i can feel my fats accumulating...
These few days hae been rather funny... My family probably got into some bad luck or smth, cox we are plagued with injuries...My mother kindda injured her wrist by overtyping and resting on the com table... My dad's wrist hurts unknowningly too.. And his back hurts too... And both of them coughed like mad esp. my mother... Really hope they are alright...
Oh, and i broke a glass wok cover accidentally dropping on the floor... And just ncie my dad just opened the door... And the glass shatters are everywhere in the kitchen. Suffered a tiny cut on my hand and leg... And i was VERY afraid that my dad will scold me etc.. But, he asked me not to move and helped cleared the mess which i created... I really felt fuking useless that i can even commit such mistake... Its not only this mistake but many other mistakes where my dad helps clear up my mess...
And iam really appreciative of it... Just that, some mistakes i can't avoid probably its the careless nature of mine... There are times when i wanna show them that ive matured like retaliating or talking big (i now its childish)... But in the end, iam just making a fool out of myself cox i think they know iam still a child incapable of providing solutions... I really wanna be an adult, providing solutions or be part of it. But, it seems that ive commmitted too much mistakes i front of them... I know they must be very disapointed of me... And the only thing which i know i made them proud is getting through poly with ok grades and getting a place in the Uni...
But i know its through sheer luck (by interview) that i got a place in SMU.. Till now honestly, i dunno if i can do it or not.. Cox my actions sometimes or most of the times dun coincide with my well-rehearsed speech... In simplified sense, i tok cock most of the time... Hopefully, i can preach what i say and put it in action... But i know i can tough it out though i can be very lazy... But i DO study hard for exams and work hard for projects alright!
I really hope that army and uni will change me... Cox the current me feels very lousy... I really hope to do my parents proud cox from young ive been a rather big disappointment... so hopefully, i will do well in uni... I try to not drop out from the course though... Alright, shall go youtubing now... Ciao...
On wed, nth much.. Thurs went to long beach at IMM... Went in and shop around, i almost could not believe that its IMM from the look outside... it has revamped alot. But the interior, stil needs improvement... LOL. The food was nice, we ordered drunk prawns, chili crab, long bean, and hotplate tofu...
Reached home and use the com till now... Anyway, zz, my so called last friend aka swimming khaki has went into army already!! So officially, everyone is gone as stated from my blog title... but i'm also gonna go in soon... Another 14 more days! And my leg and thumb sprain have not fully recovered... Hopefully by then i will be alright, meanwhile no exercising for me... =( and i can feel my fats accumulating...
These few days hae been rather funny... My family probably got into some bad luck or smth, cox we are plagued with injuries...My mother kindda injured her wrist by overtyping and resting on the com table... My dad's wrist hurts unknowningly too.. And his back hurts too... And both of them coughed like mad esp. my mother... Really hope they are alright...
Oh, and i broke a glass wok cover accidentally dropping on the floor... And just ncie my dad just opened the door... And the glass shatters are everywhere in the kitchen. Suffered a tiny cut on my hand and leg... And i was VERY afraid that my dad will scold me etc.. But, he asked me not to move and helped cleared the mess which i created... I really felt fuking useless that i can even commit such mistake... Its not only this mistake but many other mistakes where my dad helps clear up my mess...
And iam really appreciative of it... Just that, some mistakes i can't avoid probably its the careless nature of mine... There are times when i wanna show them that ive matured like retaliating or talking big (i now its childish)... But in the end, iam just making a fool out of myself cox i think they know iam still a child incapable of providing solutions... I really wanna be an adult, providing solutions or be part of it. But, it seems that ive commmitted too much mistakes i front of them... I know they must be very disapointed of me... And the only thing which i know i made them proud is getting through poly with ok grades and getting a place in the Uni...
But i know its through sheer luck (by interview) that i got a place in SMU.. Till now honestly, i dunno if i can do it or not.. Cox my actions sometimes or most of the times dun coincide with my well-rehearsed speech... In simplified sense, i tok cock most of the time... Hopefully, i can preach what i say and put it in action... But i know i can tough it out though i can be very lazy... But i DO study hard for exams and work hard for projects alright!
I really hope that army and uni will change me... Cox the current me feels very lousy... I really hope to do my parents proud cox from young ive been a rather big disappointment... so hopefully, i will do well in uni... I try to not drop out from the course though... Alright, shall go youtubing now... Ciao...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Thoughts...
I miss this beautiful scenary where i sat on the chair alone, sorting and pondering over things... How i wish i could enjoy that moment again...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Daily routine...
So what have i been doing during holidays... Morning: Ok there's no morning cox i wake up at like 11-12 plus.. Afternoon: Use the internet and look for movies and dramas to watch. Kept searching youtube for updates on the dramas and animes i watch... usually i love thurs, fris and sundays cox its the days where all my shows are at least updated! After that, about 2 plus, i mightgo down or jp to buy my lunch and on the TV... Or if i hadn't sprain my leg and my swimming khaki, zhi zhong, is free, i will go swim with him at JW complex for about 1 hour plus to 2 hour... Then have lunch at kou fu...
Upon reaching home, about 5-6pm, if i ha'dn't sprain my ankle i will be playing bball with the philipinnos or with kai lun till about 10pm... Then at night i might surf wikipedia and internet to keep myself updated with recent news and developments and the current economic situation doesnt sound good with the proposal not passed out by the parliament and various congress... After which at about 12plus am, i will continue to search for new videos on youtube till about 2plus and head for bed...
So now, my ankle is sprain, i practically rot or go to slp during the time when i am suppose to swim and bball... Fucking sprain had to come when my friends have the time off army to have a gathering and i was supposed to go cine with zhi zhong but in the end this fucking sprain ruin everything! Hope it recovers quickly... And tomorrow morning, it will be a gruesome trip to the sin seh again for my leg... More pokings and painful rubbings!
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My life's a routine...
It feels that its missing a puzzle piece...
The vital piece which will make the puzzle a complete one...
Life's nth without you around...
Upon reaching home, about 5-6pm, if i ha'dn't sprain my ankle i will be playing bball with the philipinnos or with kai lun till about 10pm... Then at night i might surf wikipedia and internet to keep myself updated with recent news and developments and the current economic situation doesnt sound good with the proposal not passed out by the parliament and various congress... After which at about 12plus am, i will continue to search for new videos on youtube till about 2plus and head for bed...
So now, my ankle is sprain, i practically rot or go to slp during the time when i am suppose to swim and bball... Fucking sprain had to come when my friends have the time off army to have a gathering and i was supposed to go cine with zhi zhong but in the end this fucking sprain ruin everything! Hope it recovers quickly... And tomorrow morning, it will be a gruesome trip to the sin seh again for my leg... More pokings and painful rubbings!
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My life's a routine...
It feels that its missing a puzzle piece...
The vital piece which will make the puzzle a complete one...
Life's nth without you around...
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Some random photos...
My attempt at capturing Afternoon sky in Spore:
The beautiful sunrise at Bintan beach:
The company at Bintan:
Had a bad day:
Ciao...
The beautiful sunrise at Bintan beach:
The company at Bintan:
Had a bad day:
Ciao...
Happy Hari Raya Puasa
Today's activities include, morning/brunch at PSA tower for tim sum... The food is Very very nice... Next up we wanted to go take a look at the F1 track so went to CBD then headed for an impromptu S'pore flyer ride... Pictures up later IF i have the mood. After that went to Bedok to my grandma's house to see Yu xin (my cute cousin)Taught her how to do the action with my front teeth sticking out like a bucks bunny.
Cracked so hard when she tried to do it that i almost have cramps. LOL.
Head back home and my mother prepared my favourite dish : fried rice... Awesomeness i would say. That roughly sums up my day. The Spore ride was not that interesting... Perhaps its not tall enough of there is no nice scenary. but the experience was alright. Lucky there was nto many people when we boarded the flyer.
Anyway, i sprain my leg AGAIN at the same spot. Now it swell like a pig trotter. I remember the instant i "crack" it, i just lay on the floor and could not get up. Almost faint so u can imagine the impact and how pain it is. Somemore, the first time when i sprainit which was like 2-3 weeks ago, still have not recover. But i think i deserved it la.. Not resting and immediately went for swimming and bballing... It hurts so much that i almost could not slp the whole night man... Luckily my sis drove me to see the doctor and he did accupunture and rub my ankle. At least it does not swell that much now.
Sorry guys, had to cancel the meeting. I really wanna meet up with ya guys... Damn i regretted playing bball that day.
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I could have met you, but guess its fate that i hurt my leg. Maybe its a reminder for me to forget u...
Gtg, ciao... Oh and i wish all muslims a Happy Hari Raya Puasa.
Cracked so hard when she tried to do it that i almost have cramps. LOL.
Head back home and my mother prepared my favourite dish : fried rice... Awesomeness i would say. That roughly sums up my day. The Spore ride was not that interesting... Perhaps its not tall enough of there is no nice scenary. but the experience was alright. Lucky there was nto many people when we boarded the flyer.
Anyway, i sprain my leg AGAIN at the same spot. Now it swell like a pig trotter. I remember the instant i "crack" it, i just lay on the floor and could not get up. Almost faint so u can imagine the impact and how pain it is. Somemore, the first time when i sprainit which was like 2-3 weeks ago, still have not recover. But i think i deserved it la.. Not resting and immediately went for swimming and bballing... It hurts so much that i almost could not slp the whole night man... Luckily my sis drove me to see the doctor and he did accupunture and rub my ankle. At least it does not swell that much now.
Sorry guys, had to cancel the meeting. I really wanna meet up with ya guys... Damn i regretted playing bball that day.
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I could have met you, but guess its fate that i hurt my leg. Maybe its a reminder for me to forget u...
Gtg, ciao... Oh and i wish all muslims a Happy Hari Raya Puasa.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
All in a day's work.
Today the whole family's been out accompanying my mother to work. Went there, read newspaper, answered some forum questions and reading online news. BTW ive been very interested in the recent economy turmoil in America. Haha.
Went to Ikea at tampines to look for my chair but to no avail. Ate at tian tian huo guo at macpherson and head on home.
Nth much to be described today. Its been a boring day.
Anyway, regarding the 700 billion bailout plan, the plan to use the tax payer's money will not work at all! Geesh... How would americans react if they have to fill a hole which was not even created by them in the first place. Blame it on the policies introduced to for housing loans to pple who could not repay back in the first place. Of course pple with the intention to buy the house and make a profit through resale are at fault. So one of the way is probably for government separate the debt. Get loan from international banks for part of the debt and for the rest, absorbed it on the part of government, at least to regain the confidence of shareholders and distribute it as profits if there is any back to the people.
As for housing loans, reduce interest rates, try to develop a scheme whereby they can repay their loan without eating in too much of their daily expenses. If it works, it will reduce further the number of foreclosures and default.
This problem is created by Americans and they should be united to tie them through this crisis. But i see that candidates are using it as a tool for the upcoming presidential election.
Went to Ikea at tampines to look for my chair but to no avail. Ate at tian tian huo guo at macpherson and head on home.
Nth much to be described today. Its been a boring day.
Anyway, regarding the 700 billion bailout plan, the plan to use the tax payer's money will not work at all! Geesh... How would americans react if they have to fill a hole which was not even created by them in the first place. Blame it on the policies introduced to for housing loans to pple who could not repay back in the first place. Of course pple with the intention to buy the house and make a profit through resale are at fault. So one of the way is probably for government separate the debt. Get loan from international banks for part of the debt and for the rest, absorbed it on the part of government, at least to regain the confidence of shareholders and distribute it as profits if there is any back to the people.
As for housing loans, reduce interest rates, try to develop a scheme whereby they can repay their loan without eating in too much of their daily expenses. If it works, it will reduce further the number of foreclosures and default.
This problem is created by Americans and they should be united to tie them through this crisis. But i see that candidates are using it as a tool for the upcoming presidential election.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Reality and truth often sucked...
As iam sitting here penning my thoughts down in a very intricate feel/mood, i can't help but feel that my intensity and determination to love someone has somewhat overwhlems even me... People always say, if you do not try, you will never know... Ive tried and failed... The great thing about trying esp. when it comes to confession is the reality is normally opposite of what you think... And yeah, the girl was not into me... That leads me to sadness, a valley where i can never climb back again... A world which darkens as thoughts of her keep appearing in my mind... Of course humans tend to exaggerate when it comes to feelings... The thoughts which control how u think and feel... For example, if i am busy or having a very good time with my friends, i would not think of her normally or maybe subconsciously i do think of her...
Well after so much of crap ive written above, the bottomline is that iam still very much in love with her... And it grows and would not be gone, just like a parasite stuck to a host... If she reads this, i know for sure, she would be VERY irritated... Damn... these love issues just wun stop... I wanna be back to the days where i did not like anyone...
A few days ago, my hardisk crashed... Spent like 4 hrs trying to retrieve the data but to no avail... And my thoughts were only the pics ive took with her and the video which i made for her when she left for overseas attachment... The pics taken before she left, the last movie outing, pictures of her smile which got me through the difficult times when iam just staring at it are all gone... It feels as if part of me has gone...
People often like someone so easily and so easily forget bout them which i view it as facade on their part... That is bullshit, that ain't love... If u can easily forget bout someone u like in the past then its not love, it might as well be called admiration.. Once the person says he/she dun like u, soon u will forget bout him/her... How superficial can that be huh... Iam not saying u should be dwelling on it forever, but have some respect for urself.. At least show that u really like the person and not just forget bout him/her so easily... Anyway its just my thoughts, no offence to anyone... U have ur thoughts and i have mine....
Iam sorry if this has become like a blog for her again... But i need to pen down my thoughts, somewhere... Or else i would die thinking of it...
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Anyway, catched Chuck season 2 the first episode and it was fantastic yet again... The intel is duplicated and yet again destriyed by a trojan so chuck wun die afterall..
And.... Ive caught episodes 1-6 of prison break season 4... All within one day... Iam such a show freak huh... Anyway, i gtg... Tired... Adios...
Well after so much of crap ive written above, the bottomline is that iam still very much in love with her... And it grows and would not be gone, just like a parasite stuck to a host... If she reads this, i know for sure, she would be VERY irritated... Damn... these love issues just wun stop... I wanna be back to the days where i did not like anyone...
A few days ago, my hardisk crashed... Spent like 4 hrs trying to retrieve the data but to no avail... And my thoughts were only the pics ive took with her and the video which i made for her when she left for overseas attachment... The pics taken before she left, the last movie outing, pictures of her smile which got me through the difficult times when iam just staring at it are all gone... It feels as if part of me has gone...
People often like someone so easily and so easily forget bout them which i view it as facade on their part... That is bullshit, that ain't love... If u can easily forget bout someone u like in the past then its not love, it might as well be called admiration.. Once the person says he/she dun like u, soon u will forget bout him/her... How superficial can that be huh... Iam not saying u should be dwelling on it forever, but have some respect for urself.. At least show that u really like the person and not just forget bout him/her so easily... Anyway its just my thoughts, no offence to anyone... U have ur thoughts and i have mine....
Iam sorry if this has become like a blog for her again... But i need to pen down my thoughts, somewhere... Or else i would die thinking of it...
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Anyway, catched Chuck season 2 the first episode and it was fantastic yet again... The intel is duplicated and yet again destriyed by a trojan so chuck wun die afterall..
And.... Ive caught episodes 1-6 of prison break season 4... All within one day... Iam such a show freak huh... Anyway, i gtg... Tired... Adios...
Friday, September 26, 2008
Iam so fucked
This heart is fucked
The emotions are fucked
The feelings are fucked
The brain is fucked
Iam overall fucked..
Why am i so fucked up over a girl who does not like me a single bit...
I derserve better ain't it...
The emotions are fucked
The feelings are fucked
The brain is fucked
Iam overall fucked..
Why am i so fucked up over a girl who does not like me a single bit...
I derserve better ain't it...
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Confused
A girl who has a bf already who still likes the guy she met on the net..
The guy knows that the girl likes him..
But the guy is still in love with the girl who doesn't like him...
The girl is willing to listen to the guy's problems and gave him her utmost support...
The guy begins to be touched by her...
The guy is willing to stay till 3-4am to accompany her wierd late slping habits...
The guy is feeling confused cox the girl wants to meet the guy but for fear of not living to her expectations...
----Confused-----
The guy knows that the girl likes him..
But the guy is still in love with the girl who doesn't like him...
The girl is willing to listen to the guy's problems and gave him her utmost support...
The guy begins to be touched by her...
The guy is willing to stay till 3-4am to accompany her wierd late slping habits...
The guy is feeling confused cox the girl wants to meet the guy but for fear of not living to her expectations...
----Confused-----
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
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Wanted to go swimming with zhi zhong today but found out that the pool close on a tues... WTF? Took a bus to there to find out that its closed... And i suggested going to town or jp, he has the cheek to say No!!! Damn... So decided to go pioneer mall for mac and went home... Sianzzz...
Went for my checkup yesterday... For those who do not know what happened to me recently, i got high blood pressure... Yea i know its a condition which affects pple who are older like in their 40s or 50s... IN the end, i went for tonnes of checks for my kidneys etc and even got warded for one day for a 24 hr bodycheck and in the end, the results were good... There is nth wrong with my kidney and my arteries are normal which do not require me to have op. The doc says at such a young age, the reason why i got HBP is either hereditary or there is some tight blood vessels which they saw when they did a scan on my kidney but further tests shows that iam normal... So in the end, its hereditary and started me on a medicine which requires me to take for lifetime... But he says if my BP reduces, he might clear me and not let me take the medicine...
Anyway, long story short, my blood pressure (BP) reduced from a whooping 160 to 132... Lucky thing is my chlorestrol (good and bad) and triclycides (i dunno how to spell it, its smth to do with a certain blood content which increases if u eat too much pig organs etc and thank god i dun eat such gross food!) level are at a normal level... And i my weight actually went down..! I have to thank my parents for being by my side during my hospital stay... Thanks for buying U magazine, 8 days, bringing my hp, psp, the chargers (thats a little extreme) and they almost brought my whole room over... I still remember that day when i was needed to be warded i was so fuking shocked cox i thought i had kidney failure which turns out to be just regular check... Double relieve for me now... Everything is normal...
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Anyway with the recent spade of events which happened at the US, the buy overs, the fed's pumping american's tax payers money for a mistake which is caused by financial institutions including banks... For those who do nto understand what is going on, let me explain in simple terms... A few yrs ago pricing of houses shot up, thus ppl were greedy and wants to make a profit out of it... But due to the high prices, pple were not able to afford it thus financial institutions came up with a plan called the sub prime mortage which allow pple to afford to purchase these houses with a loan (plus interest) from banks... The banks require HUGE capital to provide full housing loans to these pple who wanted to buy the houses...
So, financial institutions starts getting greedy by not following risk-prevention procedures and anyhow loan money to pple who do not have credibiity (meaning they do not have the ability to actually return the loan should anything happen) so that they can earn money through loan interests.. Thus there was a housing boom!! Pple thought, each month pay only a few hundred so i can afford la... Then financial institution thought, the interest made from the loan and rising property prices is a trend and a wonderful opportunity to make money...
But they need capital to loan to these pple who actually could not afford to own houses right... So they approached investment banks such as lehman bros for capital... And they packaged these loans as a investment package and sell it to other financial institutions which may want it so that they can earn money through the interests which snowballed from the loan...
Alright iam only half way to the story.. Soon property prices fall these sub prime mortages is deemed worthless now... The loans made to these pple who could not afford to buy a home accompanied byt he high interests will lead to more defaults or fore closure (meaning declaration of bankruptcy or the inability to not be able to pay back the loans)... Since property prices dropped dramatically and pple were paying loans which were the pricing of the house when it is at its prime and thus not willing to continue with the loan...
Uncertainty of the sub prime mortage market led pple to lose confidence in the market... Banks which provides the capital starts to impose strict credit criteria which lead to reduction of capital... Without captital a company cannot amke investments thus losing potential revenue...
Back to the fall of sub prime property prices... Pple were trying to sell it or default the loan s house prices dropped... Thus some owners of the house declared bankrupt so that they do not have to pay the loan... While others are not able to pay the loan...
So now the houses which the banks package into investments all lose money... For exmaple when economy is at its prime, the house is worth 800000 US dollars thus the even if the owner were to declare bankrupt, the value of the house is there...
But now the value of the house dropped to 200000 US dollars thus the loss of 600000 US dollars. All these sub prime mortage investments involve trillions of dollars and these sub prime mortage investment package affect those financial institutions who bought the investments and provided the capital... Thus they lose profit and the capital when the person who bought the house is declared bankrupt...
And the problem spirals, as more house owners are declared bankrupt or default payments to bank to repay their loans... Now the banks are not willling to provide capital loans to financial institutions and as these investments lose money, they lose their credibility.. Pple who invest in shares starts losing confidence and sell their shares in a bid to regain some part of their money... Lost in confidence leads to fall of stocks which leads to insufficient capital and they are forced to stop all investments... And ta da... Bankrupt... Which is the fate of housing finance company such as Fannie Mae and investment banks such as Lehman Bros and Merill Lynh...
Alright i know u guys are pretty bored but this is just a basic understanding to the problem in US now... As US faces these crisis, tax payers suffered, more unemployments occur, the americans lack the ability to spend thus the fall of exports in Singapore... And globally these repackaged sub prime mortage investments which allowed financial institution to buy them earn profit through interest paid by the loan are losing its feet, companies from around the world also lose money... But American government were able to restore prestige and liquidity to market through investing few hundred billions of US dollar to liquidate market...
Disaster may be averted but the problem may still spiral...
THE END...
Went for my checkup yesterday... For those who do not know what happened to me recently, i got high blood pressure... Yea i know its a condition which affects pple who are older like in their 40s or 50s... IN the end, i went for tonnes of checks for my kidneys etc and even got warded for one day for a 24 hr bodycheck and in the end, the results were good... There is nth wrong with my kidney and my arteries are normal which do not require me to have op. The doc says at such a young age, the reason why i got HBP is either hereditary or there is some tight blood vessels which they saw when they did a scan on my kidney but further tests shows that iam normal... So in the end, its hereditary and started me on a medicine which requires me to take for lifetime... But he says if my BP reduces, he might clear me and not let me take the medicine...
Anyway, long story short, my blood pressure (BP) reduced from a whooping 160 to 132... Lucky thing is my chlorestrol (good and bad) and triclycides (i dunno how to spell it, its smth to do with a certain blood content which increases if u eat too much pig organs etc and thank god i dun eat such gross food!) level are at a normal level... And i my weight actually went down..! I have to thank my parents for being by my side during my hospital stay... Thanks for buying U magazine, 8 days, bringing my hp, psp, the chargers (thats a little extreme) and they almost brought my whole room over... I still remember that day when i was needed to be warded i was so fuking shocked cox i thought i had kidney failure which turns out to be just regular check... Double relieve for me now... Everything is normal...
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Anyway with the recent spade of events which happened at the US, the buy overs, the fed's pumping american's tax payers money for a mistake which is caused by financial institutions including banks... For those who do nto understand what is going on, let me explain in simple terms... A few yrs ago pricing of houses shot up, thus ppl were greedy and wants to make a profit out of it... But due to the high prices, pple were not able to afford it thus financial institutions came up with a plan called the sub prime mortage which allow pple to afford to purchase these houses with a loan (plus interest) from banks... The banks require HUGE capital to provide full housing loans to these pple who wanted to buy the houses...
So, financial institutions starts getting greedy by not following risk-prevention procedures and anyhow loan money to pple who do not have credibiity (meaning they do not have the ability to actually return the loan should anything happen) so that they can earn money through loan interests.. Thus there was a housing boom!! Pple thought, each month pay only a few hundred so i can afford la... Then financial institution thought, the interest made from the loan and rising property prices is a trend and a wonderful opportunity to make money...
But they need capital to loan to these pple who actually could not afford to own houses right... So they approached investment banks such as lehman bros for capital... And they packaged these loans as a investment package and sell it to other financial institutions which may want it so that they can earn money through the interests which snowballed from the loan...
Alright iam only half way to the story.. Soon property prices fall these sub prime mortages is deemed worthless now... The loans made to these pple who could not afford to buy a home accompanied byt he high interests will lead to more defaults or fore closure (meaning declaration of bankruptcy or the inability to not be able to pay back the loans)... Since property prices dropped dramatically and pple were paying loans which were the pricing of the house when it is at its prime and thus not willing to continue with the loan...
Uncertainty of the sub prime mortage market led pple to lose confidence in the market... Banks which provides the capital starts to impose strict credit criteria which lead to reduction of capital... Without captital a company cannot amke investments thus losing potential revenue...
Back to the fall of sub prime property prices... Pple were trying to sell it or default the loan s house prices dropped... Thus some owners of the house declared bankrupt so that they do not have to pay the loan... While others are not able to pay the loan...
So now the houses which the banks package into investments all lose money... For exmaple when economy is at its prime, the house is worth 800000 US dollars thus the even if the owner were to declare bankrupt, the value of the house is there...
But now the value of the house dropped to 200000 US dollars thus the loss of 600000 US dollars. All these sub prime mortage investments involve trillions of dollars and these sub prime mortage investment package affect those financial institutions who bought the investments and provided the capital... Thus they lose profit and the capital when the person who bought the house is declared bankrupt...
And the problem spirals, as more house owners are declared bankrupt or default payments to bank to repay their loans... Now the banks are not willling to provide capital loans to financial institutions and as these investments lose money, they lose their credibility.. Pple who invest in shares starts losing confidence and sell their shares in a bid to regain some part of their money... Lost in confidence leads to fall of stocks which leads to insufficient capital and they are forced to stop all investments... And ta da... Bankrupt... Which is the fate of housing finance company such as Fannie Mae and investment banks such as Lehman Bros and Merill Lynh...
Alright i know u guys are pretty bored but this is just a basic understanding to the problem in US now... As US faces these crisis, tax payers suffered, more unemployments occur, the americans lack the ability to spend thus the fall of exports in Singapore... And globally these repackaged sub prime mortage investments which allowed financial institution to buy them earn profit through interest paid by the loan are losing its feet, companies from around the world also lose money... But American government were able to restore prestige and liquidity to market through investing few hundred billions of US dollar to liquidate market...
Disaster may be averted but the problem may still spiral...
THE END...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Tiresome day
Today is confuscious's birthday if iam not wrong so went to pray for my studies and army... Went all the way to the east area around katong area to pray... Tonnes of kia su mothers squeeing their way through to get the incense and pray to the gods...! Damn, there were many many pple that we had to squeeze our way throughout the whole time! Luckily my sis and i were spared from the mediation by those monks.. If not we have to sit there for like 1 hr plus i guess to hear him chant his prayers...
Went to my grandma house today... Had dinner, played around with my cute cousin! (next time i will take pics of her and upload it here)
Then its Home sweet home!! I guess the taiwan trip is off... Its like my sis and i lost the interest to travel... More ever only the 2 of us like a bit sian also... No more XMD, no more taipei 101, no more taian mee suar!! ARGH!! All the good food la... And my mother dare to ask me, next march to go hokaido!!! HELLO!! Iam serving army leh cannot go overseas... LOL... That was how i replied her... Then she said nvm, then i dun go!!! Iam gonna check out these 3 places definitely somewher ein the future which are taiwan, maldive and japan! My must-go countries!
K la, gtg... Ciao...
Went to my grandma house today... Had dinner, played around with my cute cousin! (next time i will take pics of her and upload it here)
Then its Home sweet home!! I guess the taiwan trip is off... Its like my sis and i lost the interest to travel... More ever only the 2 of us like a bit sian also... No more XMD, no more taipei 101, no more taian mee suar!! ARGH!! All the good food la... And my mother dare to ask me, next march to go hokaido!!! HELLO!! Iam serving army leh cannot go overseas... LOL... That was how i replied her... Then she said nvm, then i dun go!!! Iam gonna check out these 3 places definitely somewher ein the future which are taiwan, maldive and japan! My must-go countries!
K la, gtg... Ciao...
Starry starry night...
My mother cooked our fav curry dish! It was so oh-my-freaking awesomely nice... =) Before that breakfast was at tiong bahru market... Tried the Lor mee and it tastes very very nice... And because i only tried lor mee once and this is my first time patronizing this stall, i din know that we have to actually add the pepper, black vinegar and ginger ourselves... So after they cooked and served my lor mee, i just happily walked off without adding those extra ingredients so the uncle said "eh.. xiao di, mei you chi guo lor mee shi bu shi" in a jokingly manner... Think the pplebehind must be thinking that iam quite a lor mee noob. LOl... Had chew kuey as side and we sent mummy to her office.. Poor thing, she has to rush an audit due next week i guess... Its been hard on her, cox her office environment is not what i would call condusive because, 1) it is located in a shipyard where they build new ships thus its very very dirty, coupled with tonnes of foreign workers walking here and there, 2) Her office is not even those concrete kind, its like a container office (FYI its like those containers on the trailer bed), and 3) She has one hell of a fuking boss who does not know how to run a business well and her colleagues are those "buay zi dong" (translated loosely, it means inconsiderate) one...
Anyway, she still came home to cook for us after a long day at work, thus i decided to be extra hardworking today to do the housework with my sis... Went to visit a close relative of mine whom we did not visit for like months already... Chat till 10plus and we went off... And whenever i go there i would drink Uncle chia's homemade tei... And its freaking nice though its just a few bags of lipton bags mixed with water and low fat milk, but it taste very nice...! Been using the net and i am glad finally the america wall street's stock market has stabalized with the Feds pumping in more money... Damn i should have bought the AIG stocks! LOL...
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I have been listening to Vincent sang by don mclean... Which is a very nice song... Its quite a sad song too... Somehow this song reminds me of her for no reason.. Even though the lyrics do not apply to me in this case... I wonder if u guys ever felt very depressed for not having someone you loved alot... And sadly i still haven't find a girl quite like her... And she's the only one whom i truly like... Pple keep telling me to forget bout her and i tried convincing myself... But still... it's always me who have lingering trail of thoughts for her.. The countless lies ive made and pictured the day when she will be in my arms... I always wonder how can anyone forget someone they like so easily.... Its so hard in my case... And i have not met her for like close to 2 mths already... Theres no news of her or whatsoever... I know u will not be looking at this but... i really miss u, not just tonight but every night... I know i confessed and ive failed... But its this undying feeling which just wouldn't make me forget about u...
Anyway, she still came home to cook for us after a long day at work, thus i decided to be extra hardworking today to do the housework with my sis... Went to visit a close relative of mine whom we did not visit for like months already... Chat till 10plus and we went off... And whenever i go there i would drink Uncle chia's homemade tei... And its freaking nice though its just a few bags of lipton bags mixed with water and low fat milk, but it taste very nice...! Been using the net and i am glad finally the america wall street's stock market has stabalized with the Feds pumping in more money... Damn i should have bought the AIG stocks! LOL...
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I have been listening to Vincent sang by don mclean... Which is a very nice song... Its quite a sad song too... Somehow this song reminds me of her for no reason.. Even though the lyrics do not apply to me in this case... I wonder if u guys ever felt very depressed for not having someone you loved alot... And sadly i still haven't find a girl quite like her... And she's the only one whom i truly like... Pple keep telling me to forget bout her and i tried convincing myself... But still... it's always me who have lingering trail of thoughts for her.. The countless lies ive made and pictured the day when she will be in my arms... I always wonder how can anyone forget someone they like so easily.... Its so hard in my case... And i have not met her for like close to 2 mths already... Theres no news of her or whatsoever... I know u will not be looking at this but... i really miss u, not just tonight but every night... I know i confessed and ive failed... But its this undying feeling which just wouldn't make me forget about u...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
The cruelty...
You've done well to ignore me...
The cruelty of yours spreads to my deepening wound...
Perhaps thats the consequence of a one sided love...
Ive given myself one week, 3 weeks, 2 months, 5 months to forget u...
But as the period of time stretches, that stagnant feeling for you often gives off sudden ripples which makes me mad in love with u again...
I know i have to get over u, but its a matter of time and how?
Your cruelty is perhaps the best way to make me forget bout u...
And I chose to ride on this cruelty through ignorance...
I dunno what i'm feeling but
Its this wierd feeling that persist in me...
But all i know is perhaps i will not be able to meet a girl like you anymore...
The cruelty of yours spreads to my deepening wound...
Perhaps thats the consequence of a one sided love...
Ive given myself one week, 3 weeks, 2 months, 5 months to forget u...
But as the period of time stretches, that stagnant feeling for you often gives off sudden ripples which makes me mad in love with u again...
I know i have to get over u, but its a matter of time and how?
Your cruelty is perhaps the best way to make me forget bout u...
And I chose to ride on this cruelty through ignorance...
I dunno what i'm feeling but
Its this wierd feeling that persist in me...
But all i know is perhaps i will not be able to meet a girl like you anymore...
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
loneliness
Well, well~~ After all or most of my dudes went into army ive been feeling VERY lonely... Haiz, the amount of emotional roller coaster ive to go through as each of them reaches their enlistment days... LOl.. Ok, a bit off the point and exaggerated... But the point ive learnt is that, i can nv survive without friends which i used to think i can...
But what saddens me further is that i do not have a partner to share my remaining days with, for example, a gf? Well , well.... Here's a big secret, i do not have any gfs at all!!! And yes, i do not hold hands, kiss and am still a virgin, ok thats rather out of point... But my point is when am i gonna have a partner.. Its not like i do not try looking for one... Just that it always ended up one sided, which sucks... The bottom line is, iam a very perplex and complex guy... I get emotional easily which probably turn girls off... *shrugs*
Alright, shall end this post with a abrupt ending.... ciao.
But what saddens me further is that i do not have a partner to share my remaining days with, for example, a gf? Well , well.... Here's a big secret, i do not have any gfs at all!!! And yes, i do not hold hands, kiss and am still a virgin, ok thats rather out of point... But my point is when am i gonna have a partner.. Its not like i do not try looking for one... Just that it always ended up one sided, which sucks... The bottom line is, iam a very perplex and complex guy... I get emotional easily which probably turn girls off... *shrugs*
Alright, shall end this post with a abrupt ending.... ciao.
its time to feel negative
The dark age is coming... Hurricane ike, fall of 2 major finance companies in the US (Lehman Brothers and Merrill Lynch), plunging stockmarkets, more companies bankrupt due to insufficient funds, global threats, political unrest in malaysia, thailand and etc... So many things are happening yet we are still so positive of the future... Humans learnt to master the art of ignorance.... Unless it happenes to us, if not, we do not care... But the point often is when we start to care, we are gone... Either u choose to remain stupid and follow the crowd or realize the cosequences and do ur part by changing or contributing...
Damn how negative iam feeling now... Well lets just hope that we all do survive these crisis... People always wanted to be smth great and when we do achieve that we have to uphold it... And be assure to deliver this promise and not let others down. The fall of 2 major finance companies certainly has impacted the whole world... And the end result, many other companies fall in the hands of economic crisis... Which is why pple always say with greater power comes great responsibility... How true is that huh.. For hundreds of yrs lehman bros have been expanding, providing loans to help finance smaller companies and their fall is described as the next big thing after the economy crisis in 1997...
Anyway iam just presenting the ugly truth to u readers... Expect the worse because we are indeed in such a bad shape...
Damn how negative iam feeling now... Well lets just hope that we all do survive these crisis... People always wanted to be smth great and when we do achieve that we have to uphold it... And be assure to deliver this promise and not let others down. The fall of 2 major finance companies certainly has impacted the whole world... And the end result, many other companies fall in the hands of economic crisis... Which is why pple always say with greater power comes great responsibility... How true is that huh.. For hundreds of yrs lehman bros have been expanding, providing loans to help finance smaller companies and their fall is described as the next big thing after the economy crisis in 1997...
Anyway iam just presenting the ugly truth to u readers... Expect the worse because we are indeed in such a bad shape...
Sunday, September 14, 2008
A friend of mine who is an asshole
Ever wonder how do u classify a funny bastard friend... Follow the conversation as below... No offence to sheela and marcus though... LOL...
Lesnar
u've given me all the love that i need says:
date sheela la. today her bday
thomas chua... says:
went malaysia yest.
thomas chua... says:
then got play
thomas chua... says:
lolz
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
u don say, she don say, i don say
thomas chua... says:
ya lor
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
marc donno de
thomas chua... says:
lolz
thomas chua... says:
fuk i wil ps this conversation
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
pangsai? pangseh? pisai?
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
what u talking
thomas chua... says:
print screen la dey
thomas chua... says:
wha lau
thomas chua... says:
i more high tech than u sia
thomas chua... says:
lolz
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
hahaha
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
print screen is call prtsc bboy
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ANyway good luck for ur army man! Bros foreva...
Lesnar
u've given me all the love that i need says:
date sheela la. today her bday
thomas chua... says:
went malaysia yest.
thomas chua... says:
then got play
thomas chua... says:
lolz
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
u don say, she don say, i don say
thomas chua... says:
ya lor
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
marc donno de
thomas chua... says:
lolz
thomas chua... says:
fuk i wil ps this conversation
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
pangsai? pangseh? pisai?
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
what u talking
thomas chua... says:
print screen la dey
thomas chua... says:
wha lau
thomas chua... says:
i more high tech than u sia
thomas chua... says:
lolz
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
hahaha
Lesnar u've given me all the love that i need says:
print screen is call prtsc bboy
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ANyway good luck for ur army man! Bros foreva...
Friday, September 12, 2008
Cutie cousin!
Went to eat dinner with my family at upper serrangoon de "zhi char" there... Fantastic. We ordered a fish steamboat, coffee por rib, kang kong and the "hey chor" (i dunno how u would say that in eng. but its smth like ngoh hiang).. Anyway, its only like 58.60 for all that... Its called tian wai tian steamboat... Definitely recommmended.... After that went to visit my baby cousin...
Oh i woke up at 1.30 today.. New record...!! Then slacked and watch movie which i downloaded... Did port forwarding and my torrent download speed is like a whopping 230ish kb/sec!!!! But its at night bout 3am which is like the off peak so not many pple downlaoding and thus the speed...
Ok enough of bitorrent... I'm losing another friend to army... Lol... Good luck kelvin teo... And then it would be lesnar's turn and iam friendless within a span of 3 days... And iam losing another few friends on oct... But the problem is i dun always go out with them.. =( ANyone wanna ask me out... I'm available...
Wanted to look for a job... But i guess with the cirrent list of shows that i wanna watch i dun think i will want to find a job... Hehe...
Think iam gonna slp now, going to malaysia tml cox my grandma is like complaining why so long nv see me already... good night all...
Oh i woke up at 1.30 today.. New record...!! Then slacked and watch movie which i downloaded... Did port forwarding and my torrent download speed is like a whopping 230ish kb/sec!!!! But its at night bout 3am which is like the off peak so not many pple downlaoding and thus the speed...
Ok enough of bitorrent... I'm losing another friend to army... Lol... Good luck kelvin teo... And then it would be lesnar's turn and iam friendless within a span of 3 days... And iam losing another few friends on oct... But the problem is i dun always go out with them.. =( ANyone wanna ask me out... I'm available...
Wanted to look for a job... But i guess with the cirrent list of shows that i wanna watch i dun think i will want to find a job... Hehe...
Think iam gonna slp now, going to malaysia tml cox my grandma is like complaining why so long nv see me already... good night all...
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Oh mine..
Damn... marcus is going tml (good luck bro), kel is gg on sat and les on monday... #(*#&^#&$%^&#%.. Iam fuked man... still got like one month plus la... OMG... And double that is that i realised pec c dun have POP!! OMg... maybe its a faggot unit consisting of weak soldiers like me... Damn... I feel so inferior... alright iam here to just vent my fustrations!
And i just realized that i ahve little friends... LOL...
And i just realized that i ahve little friends... LOL...
Weeee....
Any of u found this blog then good for u... No prizes though. I'm sure all the smart ones will find this blog eventually... Created this blog cox i decided to keep that blog... Its like a more personal blog for me... Cox i like to vent my unhappiness through writing and yet i'm too lazy to write in a journal... So this is sort of a public blog...
Anyway, went to see doctor chew for my leg.. Sprain it... Then went for supper at satay club... Now the outcome is me feeling guilty...
These whole time been either at home watching shows or out with family... Freaking bored... But i love catching up on shows... Tonnes of shows that i missed out. Such as one piece, bleach, naruto, 24 (soon to catch it again), prison break, chuck season 2 (awaiting for it to come out), and the list goes on...
Ive just downloaded a movie called aftermath population zero (its an episode of geograhic).... Watched it halfway and i decided that this show is too depressing... Damn i feel so guilty for what we have done to earth...
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Wanted to go Bali for vacation with my aunties and uncles and family, but something crop up and we decided to cancel the trip...
Anyway, i had a talk with my sis and it seems that we both feel that our family is too restrictive... And my dad says why recently i do not listen to them.. Well i kept quiet... Cox i know if i say things like "i grow up le what..." or "i got my own thoughts and being an individual, i have the right to listen to the things i think of as correct"... But just couldn't cox the aftermath will be a scolding, and then cold war... And i actually have the thought of moving out IF i have the ability.. But that would be too unfillial right? Damn i deserve to go to heaven for that... LOL.
Alright, its been a long post huh... Gonna continue watching the depressing earth show... Night...
Anyway, went to see doctor chew for my leg.. Sprain it... Then went for supper at satay club... Now the outcome is me feeling guilty...
These whole time been either at home watching shows or out with family... Freaking bored... But i love catching up on shows... Tonnes of shows that i missed out. Such as one piece, bleach, naruto, 24 (soon to catch it again), prison break, chuck season 2 (awaiting for it to come out), and the list goes on...
Ive just downloaded a movie called aftermath population zero (its an episode of geograhic).... Watched it halfway and i decided that this show is too depressing... Damn i feel so guilty for what we have done to earth...
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Wanted to go Bali for vacation with my aunties and uncles and family, but something crop up and we decided to cancel the trip...
Anyway, i had a talk with my sis and it seems that we both feel that our family is too restrictive... And my dad says why recently i do not listen to them.. Well i kept quiet... Cox i know if i say things like "i grow up le what..." or "i got my own thoughts and being an individual, i have the right to listen to the things i think of as correct"... But just couldn't cox the aftermath will be a scolding, and then cold war... And i actually have the thought of moving out IF i have the ability.. But that would be too unfillial right? Damn i deserve to go to heaven for that... LOL.
Alright, its been a long post huh... Gonna continue watching the depressing earth show... Night...
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